I’ve never been the greatest communicator. It is not one of my strongest skills. I’m more of the passive type of person. I have been a receptor. I have been a receptacle of emotions and opinions. Someone told me once that I was easily influenced – weak of character –it made me feel awful. But that’s not always the case. Sometimes you have to be strong to be on that side of the story. Sometimes you just have to be there. But the times have changed and I have things to say. I cannot be passive anymore.
I need to take actions in order to survive, because I have been feeling like I am disappearing. I have invalidated myself for a while and it has hurt me. These are the days of communication. Internet has over flown our lives and our time, and it seems to me like only those who are out there communicating really exist.
The truth of the matter for me at this moment is that Internet represents a good opportunity to change my ways. I need to find my own voice and learn to embrace my own thoughts. At least to finish this essay and to publish it represents a big step for me. Especially because is tangible and that’s what I need the most –Something tangible to validate my own feelings.
So here I go. Why am I blogging? It’s not my main goal to have an effect on people. Although that would be great – and it is one of the goals in my list, but I’m happy with at least doing it for myself. Again, it is helping me to validate own feelings and to achieve something tangible. It’s been a great exercise that’s forced me to organize my ideas and to produce something, to let myself be. This is the big opportunity that Internet represents and I am willing to take advantage of it.
